Declaration of Dependence

Long lashes against his pale cheeks, my youngest son was sleeping soundly despite the beeping and whirring backdrop of the children’s Intensive Care Unit (ICU).  The ambulance ride, the endless testing and probing, and the grim diagnosis were secondary now to my boy’s constant pain, his fear, and the question marks that persisted hour after hour.
Surgery?
More tests?
What’s next?

What I remember most from those days of wondering and waiting was the uncertainty and the chaos of it all.  There was no silence – and there was certainly no privacy – but, in the background, my prayers thrummed the cadence of a continual S.O.S., pleading for strength from God to bear the next thing, whatever it might be.   By His Spirit, God reminded me that He had taken in all that had happened:  the bicycle crash, the ruptured spleen, the ambulance ride, the continual suffering of my tiny boy.  God knew about the present situation and all that I feared for the coming days– but, unlike me, He had not run out of strength.

So, I asked.

In a Declaration of Dependence, I asked for His strength.  I looked at my desperate situation, my very sick boy, my fear, and my questions, and I asked for strength to wait and to trust God for whatever would be required in the coming hours and days.

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Community among bloggers is a precious thing, so it’s my pleasure and privilege to be sharing this long ago experience of the faithfulness of God over at Debbie Kitterman’s writing home today.  

Debbie Kitterman, is an author, speaker, and the founder of Dare 2 Hear, a ministry training individuals in hearing the voice of God.  For information about her book or her speaking ministry, click here to visit her website.

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Michele Morin

Michele Morin is a teacher, blogger, reader, and gardener who finds joy in sitting at a table surrounded by women with open Bibles. She has been married to an unreasonably patient husband for over 25 years, and their four children are growing up at an alarming rate. Michele loves hot tea and well-crafted sentences, poems that stop her in her tracks and days at the ocean with the whole family. She laments biblical illiteracy and advocates for the prudent use of “little minutes.” She blogs at Living Our Days, and you can connect with her on Facebook or Twitter.

15 thoughts on “Declaration of Dependence”

  1. This was such a great read about this pivotal experience in your life and faith. Thanks for giving us another glimpse into your life beyond the keyboard and the screen. It helps define how you have become such a wordsmith and teacher, positive Christ-centered encourager, and more.

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  2. “If David had merely called upon some inner strength to get him through this crisis, I might admire him, but there would be no hope for me in it.” Love this line. Thank you for sharing this testimony, Michele, so blessed my it!

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  3. I almost couldn’t click over to keep reading this, Michele. I have clocked more time in the NICU and PICU than I would care to count with our oldest. The sirens, the beeping, the never-quietness of it still freezes me mid-memory. I’m glad I kept reading though. I’ve read a great deal on David because he feels the most like me in his ups and downs and I believe you are right, that he teaches us so much more by not “muscling through it.” Because we can’t. Sometimes we just can’t. And so God does.

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    1. I really hadn’t thought about this post as being a “trigger” for anyone, but I can imagine that you have smells and sounds and certain decors in your memory that you hope never to have to experience again. There’s nothing like pouring our hearts out for our kids (of any age) to bring us to the point of helpless dependence upon the mercy and strength of God. So glad that you brought your very unique experience to this conversation, Jamie.

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